I want to take myself out
And call it a twilight trek
Walk in a coffee shop
Ask for a cappuccino without a bite
As I sip the coffee, give my thoughts a seat,
Off my phone look into myself
Start another trek within myself

Go back in time
And ask my dad for an out
Order a cup of coffee and porridge for him, in a Calabash,
He likes porridge, hot porridge
I just want to get his thoughts about family
And probably know his youth
I don’t want it to be a man to man conversation, I want to get it all from him
I want to know how it feels like to be a father figure, if it feels proud to make a solid income and dissolve it to a people you call family and call yourself a solution
I want to know what respect sounds to him, especially from people you call your children
I want to know the people he called closer to family when he felt he needed someone
I just want to find a reason to love this man

I want to imagine me and my mother in Mombasa sipping some vanilla shake, just busking
I want her to experience this life
I want to take her to a spa, have her nails done, I want to have the best dress for her
As we busk, I want know who is a woman for her
I want to know the blunders she made in all her transitions as a woman,
I want to know her take on empowerment

I mean we are programmed to different aspects, even in how we act and think so actually learning is the process of unlearning
Wisdom is actually unlearning stereotypes
So as I sip this cappuccino, I sip a whole difference than a cup of milk in a coffee jar
I’m wondering what life really is
Sometimes we just need some cuddle with reality
And reality doesn’t exist, we find it out ourselves

I want this to be a phenomenal day out
I want to finish this cup of coffee and scan the menu again for a maincourse
I couldn’t use offcourse for this line, that is not in my line of thoughts
I want some outside jokes like pretending I’m a vegan at such settings when it’s actually fake beef
I just want to be real
I just want us to be real
I just want us to be present, all flaws have just taken the place of knowledge
Knowledge needs you

Now I’m out of the restaurant
I just texted the uber guy and so he’s here
I occupy the back left seat, pocket my phone and just decide to have a mental take off
Thinking about life, life itself
Life is just constant, we survive on good days by just simple affirmations and only die when no comes our way
We shrink sometimes, we wink sometimes because she looks gorgeous and we are all love
Life is what we make of it

I’m at home,
What a perfect day out
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